LAST QUARTER OF COLLEGE
I had presented at the UW's 21st Annual Pacific Northwest McNair/EIP/GO-MAP Research Conference, wrapped up the CHID Focus Group I was facilitating, flown to the East Coast to participate in the 7-day Rutgers English Diversity Institute (REDI) Program, flown back to the West Coast to take my Finals after missing a whole week of classes, wrapped up my year as President of Sigma Tau Delta, attended two graduation ceremonies, applied for my visa and rushed multiple critical documents to the Institute of International Education (IIE) office in New York to finalize my Fulbright grant, written my McNair research paper, and helped inspect the rooms of over 50 of my own residents, and close down Haggett Hall for the academic year - and I had done all of this back-to-back within the span of a little under a month.
While it is not unusual to be busy during one's senior year, I had wrapped up my undergraduate career with 255 credits (75 credits over the 180 required to graduate), had done so without taking a single break from coursework for four years (including Summer Quarters), and had "finished strong" (my mantra this past quarter) with a 3.92/4.00 cumulative GPA.
Needless to say, I was fried. I looked forward to home and to being able to recuperate there without concerns over speech outlines, paper drafts, book editions, room condition reports, medical bills and post office receipts, and new officers application forms intruding upon what would amount to be an extremely short two-week summer vacation sandwiched between my graduation from college and orientation in Korea.
MY TWO-WEEK VACATION
During this time, I managed to say goodbye to most of my academic mentors at UW, guest speak at a class on campus, do four photo shoots, enjoy a graduation picnic my family put together for me, entertain a handful of lovely friends who were able to attend said picnic, receive prayers over Skype from a couple of other friends, meet up with a few of my now-former residents who insisted on seeing me before I left, appreciate a thoughtful and tear-jerking video my sister made me for a graduation present, delightfully navigate my first-ever smart phone (another graduation present), go on a hike with and cook a Thai dinner for my best friend, learn Hangul, (the Korean alphabet), accompany my mom many times to the grocery store, and pack up a year's-worth of personal belongings in two suitcases, one carry-on, and one backpack.
HEADING TO THE AIRPORT
Before I knew it, Mama was driving me to Sea-Tac airport, Christy looked as if she was fighting back tears while at the same time trying to induce it in others, and Emily - well, Emily was actually the most well-composed out of the three of them - though she did jump and fly about inside the building, clapping her hands, and laughing gleefully at no one in particular. Her happy countenance inspired many smiles at the airport and led me to wonder whether she understood that I was going away, for a whole year.
KEEPING EMILY IN THE LOOP
I had tried to communicate this fact to her many times, saying, "Ling, Mimi going Korea! Yes! Me going! No, no, no, you can't come. Only me, okay?" She would look temporarily crest-fallen until I reminded her that she could always google "Incheon Airport." Remembering that we had a layover there a couple years ago on our way to the Philippines, she would smile and nod and confirm, "Mimi going Korea!" "Yes, yes, Mimi going Korea..." Despite how oblivious Emily seemed to my very obvious, impending departure, I know that she processes a lot more than we usually give her credit for. I know that she knows.
SAYING OUR GOODBYES
Internally and externally, I was the calmest in the family. I had forecasted earlier that there was a 70 percent chance of my mother crying, and so I steeled myself in order to avoid being swept up by the currents of her and/or Christy's emotions. I resolved, (much like I did before viewing The Passion of the Christ and Les Miserables), that I would reign in my emotions until such a time when I could express them very far away from the sight of other mortals, especially my family.
I have so much to look forward to in this upcoming year in Korea, but I also have so much to return to back in the States.
I been trying to make comment of what I've read soo far but I can't post it. Christy said it requires me to sign up for blogging, so now I will try to be anonymous see if it works.
ReplyDeleteMa, You don't have to sign up for blogging in order to comment! All you have to do is sign in to your gmail account and that will allow you to post as yourself, not "Anonymous." I think I can identify you even without a signature at the end, but, just in case, do you think you could include something like "-Mama" at the end to let me know that it's you? Thank you, Ma!
DeleteBtw. I see it work as long as I'm anonymous. Will, what I was saying was, you have more message than I could read. I guess I just have to read faste Mi :) but the stories and pictures are beautiful, interristing and some are funny :) I'm just touch most specially the family part. Thank you for sharing Mi. We all missed you very much and we love you dearly <3
ReplyDeleteMa, of course there's a family part! I hope to end my journey the same way I started it: with you! I'm glad that you are liking the stories and pictures. Thank you for taking the time to read each post, even though they tend to be long. I love you, too, Ma!
DeleteAs you so easily do with every work you make, I was almost moved to tears. It's hard to believe that it was only about a week ago when we sent you off to Korea and now we will have to wait 51 more for your return.
ReplyDeleteI know you, more than you think I do. Although you were always so bad at cooking because you just don't have that natural instinct to tell if the rice is done or not, or how much salt to put in the meal, I know you know just how much affection to show your family and how much you should hold back your tears when it comes time. If it weren't for the make-up, I would have been balling my eyes out on the spot. But alas, the fear of my make-up running down my face was more powerful than my feelings for you leaving. hahha. Jk.
Reading what you have accomplished on just your last month as an undergrad, it makes me wonder what kind of craziness I will be dealing with myself, and I'm truly scared. But seeing as how you came out so successful and already on to your next adventure, it gives me hope that my future will be just as bright too.
Man, what would I have done without a model like you? I have followed your footsteps since we were kids, and now that you're gone, how do I follow? Thanks man, for teaching me how it's done and for giving me the best role model of a sister that you are. Because of you, I aim higher.
I guess what's left to do now is go for that honors in Spanish so I can at least have something that you will be proud of. It's just too bad you won't be seeing me graduate with that extra cord on my neck but I know you will be there in spirit.
Well, that's all for now. Hope you have fun with other people and not waste your time being in front of the computer all day looking at cute cat pictures :P
Christy, you leave the wildest, funniest comments ever. Thank you for taking the time to write such thought out responses! You should know that I know that you know me more than I think you do - lol! I definitely got the feeling you were just holding it in because of the make-up. Also probably because you were about to write that essay and couldn't afford to have to many emotional stresses going into it. I understand you, too, sis ;)
DeleteDon't be anxious for anything during your senior year. You always manage to have a blast AND get fantastic grades so I have never felt like I had to worry about giving you extra motivation or reminding you of the importance of doing well. You do a lot of things already that make me proud, including having represented who you are well while you were abroad in many countries this past year. I am happy to blaze a trail for you, but I know you have outgrown that and are blazing numerous trails of your own. As long as you don't get lost, and have to call me to come and find you, everything's going to be alright!
As for that Honors in Spanish, go for it - not because it will give you "something that [I] will be proud of" but because you have freaking earned to be in that program, and deserve to be a part of a high-caliber of students. I have told you this over and again: go for it :D
Let me know what your final decision is.
For now, I'm going to go and look at cute cat pictures to unwind (how did you know, btw?!)
Mimi, you're so freaking awesome! I have doubts whether you're really a human. It's seems impossible for a normal human being to achieve this much in one month. You obviously have some super-power.
ReplyDeleteHaha, thank you for your compliment-of-a-doubt! I'm not sure who left this message, but when you get there, you will see that you're capable of accomplishing the same. I was fortunate not to suffer from "senioritis" during my entire college career!
Deletesigh... so busy! I like your 3.92 though. :)
ReplyDeleteI like it, too, thanks Ruzz!
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